Friday, January 28, 2011


Just asking for prayers reguarding the next steps in treatment for Andrew.   We've pretty much put all his previous treatments (except the diet) on hold because I feel like we need to get some fresh perspective.  There are a couple of options for us to embark on and I really would like to have God's leading.   He knows far better than I what is causing Andrew's current regression and how to fix it.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Letters to God

We finished watching a movie tonight that we started on Sunday evening with the kids.  It was called Letters To God and is based on a true story.    By the time the movie was over both the kids were crying and asking us all kinds of questions.  Both about the little boy in the movie and about death and heaven.   

It really struck a cord with them and their walk with God and they both ran upstairs to write their own letter to God.   What they wrote was so touching and beautiful to us as parents.

Courtney's Letter #1:
Dear God, Tell Tyler I hope he is OK.  I love you very much.  I'm not going to be afraid to die, I will be happy because I love you.

Courtney's Letter #2:
Dear God, Thank you for giving me life.  I love every person on earth, especially mom, dad, and my baby brother and big brother.  I love you very much.  I hope you will forgive every sin I've made.  I love the people in heaven and Jesus name we pray Amen.

Andrew's Letter:
Dear God, I love you very much.  You are the best person.  I miss Tanner when he is away.  I love you God.  Love Andrew

I am so encouraged by their faith - by the lessons they are learning and the steps they are taking to make their relationship with God personal and real.   We will continue to urge them to write their letters to God - for it is really just a prayer and form of worship that they understand.  

Thursday, January 13, 2011


Wow, 2010 was a crazy year around the Skillestad house.   I feel a bit like I got run over by something, but I recognize God's hand in our lives this year as well.

Most of it is still a bit surreal.   I had been dead set against having any more children for a LONG time.  So even though I was pregnant for 8 months, sometimes I look at Tanner and have to remind myself he is ours.   His birth was also so tramatic and crazy that I look back at it like it was part of a TV show I saw.   I guess that has something to do with birthing chemicals in my brain - so I won't look back with sheer terror.   He is growing so quickly and is such a little blessing to our family.  Courtney is an amazing big sister and he loves to be held by her!   Andrew mainly loves to say "Hi Tanner" and rub his head - but I know he will be a great big brother to him.

We had a family of 6 move in for a couple months - not much to say except "yes" we are still friends with them and "yes" we are glad they are happily settled in their new home :)

The death of my grandma right before Christmas also doesn't seem real sometimes.   Even though I was able to go to Florida to say goodbye before she passed, it was so unexpected and having had a baby only 6 weeks before I think I was still in a bit of a fog.  I will miss her very much, but I know I will see her when I enter Heaven someday.  My only wish was to have her see Tanner before she left us and a kind nurse broke the rules and let me bring him into the ICU for just a few minutes.  He make a big squack and she opened her eyes real big and looked at us intently.  Because she was intubated she couldn't talk and was too weak to move much - but I know she saw him even if she didn't recongnize us or know who he was.  She spent alot of time praying for that little boy in his early life and I wanted so much for her to meet her 15th Great-Grandchild.   Goodbye Grandma Fran - you will be missed - we love you.

Otherwise 2010 didn't have much else going on.  Andrew is continuing to improve in the behavior department and we feel so blessed to have not had to deal with the abusive little boy that usually shows up after the start of school. 

Well - time to get some sleep.  A rare commodity for myself since I got pregnant.....but I know it will come.  God Bless All and have a Blessed 2011!