Fireproof

We went to a movie tonight - my first in many months. I went knowing it was not going to be an Emmy nomiated movie, nor one that may be in theatres for any length of time, but one that I knew would leave me feeling like I had been touched by the Holy Spirit.

I was not disappointed. How often I need visual reminders of God's grace and desire for me to let go and run to him. I came home and decided to browse the website relating to the movie and on one of the pages the song "Deeper Still" by Scott Krippayne started playing. My counselling session last week was specifically centered on my desire to know God deeper, I want to let go of my self-reliance and let him be my partner. I honestly know tonight that I don't have to live this life a one-woman tornado trying to make life run smoothly for all involved in my life. Tonight I'm letting go of my inability to fix my son, my inability to to be the mother I desire, my inability to be the wife I desire, my inability to be the employee I want to be - and I'm putting them in hands that are far more qualified to make them work than I am. I'm ready to fall into the arms of God and let him lead, I'm ready to feel I'm worthy of him and all he has to offer, and I will do my darndest not to backseat drive. I only have one life on this earth - I cannot continue to spend that life striving to please everyone except for the ONE who matters. Lord, intimacy with you is my desire, I feel your presence and I know you are here with me to walk alongside, to guide, and to carry my burdens. Lead on.......

"Deeper Still"

Here I am in this familiar place again

Standing on the shore of my complacency

Ankle deep in love I once was swimming in

Shallowness has taken over me

But the current pulls the sand

And moves my stubborn feet

From the dryness of the land

To where the waves pound over me

CHORUS:

Take me deep enough where I can see

The bottom of Your heart

Deep enough that I can know Your will

Deep enough to know that we Will never be apart

And when I get there

Take me deeper still

Take me through the wonders of Your faithfulness

Help me see the depth of my own need

Lead me to the water where Your mercy is

For You and You alone can set me free

I am covered by Your grace Far away from shore

As You’re taking me to places I have never been before

CHORUS:
Take me deep enough where I can see
The bottom of Your heart
Deep enough that I can know Your will
Deep enough to know that we Will never be apart
And when I get there
Take me deeper still